in the meantime

Today, wounds resurfaced that I thought were healed. Ouch. Sometimes I think that heart wounds are never completely healed. Over time the pain lessons, but when we're reminded, the sharp stinging and tears return.

Like every other person on this earth, I have been hurt. I have wounds that cut to the core and tempt me to never trust my heart to another. My issues with trust for a time separated me from God. For so long, I thought that Jesus would accidentally drop my heart like so many others have. I tried to create a heart of stone inside that was impenetrable to pain. But, after a while the heaviness in my chest made it harder to live, because I lost life.

Life without love is nothing. Love is what makes relationships worthwhile. True love, God love, is what heals heart wounds. Instead of hardening your heart, soften it to the things of God.

If God let his heart be broken for me to reconciled unto him, then it is worth for me to risk the same.

"We need to open the heart to Christ. We need much firmer faith and more fervent devotion. We need to die to self, and in mind and heart to cherish an adoring love for our Saviour. When we will seek the Lord with all the heart we shall find Him, and our hearts will be all aglow with His love. Self will sink into insignificance, and Jesus will be all and in all to the soul."-- EGW, In Heavely Places, p 87.