in the meantime

So, for the past few weeks my mind was very focused on working on my testimony. Mostly because it was probably the most fearful experience of my life, but God truly worked a miracle in a huge way. It's amazing how the Holy Spirit just gives you a calm demeanor even though on the inside you're trembling like a leaf.I feel so honored to have had the opportunity to share with so many people what God has done for me.

But, now that the week is over, it's back to life. The tests, quizzes, homework, papers, and stress. Like a tidal wave last night came the uncertainty of the future. I don't know what God is leading me to do after graduation. I'm sure most people would think "Well if you're doing nursing then be a nurse..." but I've never been one for the whole Hospital nursing bit. I really want to help people and not just physically. So, as thoughts are scrambling in my mind about what my purpose is etc. I realized something.

Last week I shared with Southern the darkest parts of my past. Things I never thought I'd be able to share with more than 5 people. My purpose in life is to testify every day of God's love for sinners like me. Maybe I don't know the answers to the big questions in life, but I do know the God who has led me this far. Like a good Father I know He'll hold my hand through it all.