in the meantime

Well, this is definitely what I didn't have in mind when I thought about the end of summer.

For those of you who don't know, I spent 6 hours in the Emergency Room in Virginia on Thursday. I had the most unbearable pain in my life, so after ultrasounds and failed attempts at IV's they felt I needed to go see my doctor at home. So, the next morning I was off to Pennsylvania again. The nice thing is they gave me some lovely pain meds so I'm not hurting as much.

This experience has been very frustrating. Especially because I don't know how long it will take for them to fix what's wrong with me. With the light at the end of the tunnel with school, I just don't want to add on another semester all because of this. So, things are running through my head constantly as I sit at home waiting for something to happen. I'm trying to remain optimistic, but it's hard.

"In the Bible clouds are always connected with God. Clouds are those sorrows or sufferings or providences, within or without our personal lives, which seem to dispute the rule of God. It is by those very clouds that the Spirit of God is teaching us how to walk by faith. If there were no clouds, we should have no faith. "The clouds are but the dust of our Father's feet." The clouds are a sign that He is there. What a revelation it is to know that sorrow and bereavement and suffering are the clouds that come along with God! God cannot come near without clouds, He does not come in clear shining."--My Utmost for His Highest