in the meantime

One thing that helped me get through the days was knowing that God was handling everything for me. He was the one person I could rely on to always come through for me. He never put me on the back burner or brushed me off whenever I needed Him. As I would pray in the morning while looking out on the peaceful lake, I would ask Him to make me the best director He could make me be. Sure, there were many times I would say or do the wrong thing. I never had all the answers that I wish I could've given. I didn't have the wisdom I needed to make the right decision every single time. I didn't always have the patience I longed for or the long suffering I needed. When it came to the fruits of the spirit, I was lacking. But, I know that God was with me and he helped me through everything. I relied on Him in way that I hadn't in a long time. It made me feel good knowing that no matter what shortcomings I had, His blood covered my flaws.

Now that I'm looking towards my last year at Southern, I definitly have my reservations. After going through my depression last year, I learned to doubt myself a lot. I'm scared that I won't be able to handle things the way I used to before. I have fears that haunt me day in and day out. But, just as God helped me with my shortcoming this summer, I have a feeling that He will help me this year get past all the hurdles that life will throw at me.