22 July 2008
It's so interesting how much change can scare you. I was not feeling camp when the time came to pack my bags. Now that I've been here for a whopping 6 weeks, it seemed so familiar, like riding a bicycle. I knew what I was doing a lot better than I used to. I felt comfortable and at ease. Sure, there were some crazy twists and turns here and there, but I felt like things were under control (just the way this melancholy girl likes it).
Then the changing of the tide occurred and my denial soon faded. I was harshly reminded of the fact that I live a sinful world full of losses and goodbyes. The other day when AJ, Chris, Francis jumped ship and left us for greener pastures, I became so emotional. I didn't know why the tears were flowing like a out of control river. Then I remembered the bane of my existence...change.
I am homesick for heaven. I want to go be with my Savior and the ones I love. I want to see my campers and laugh with them for all eternity. I want to see the outcome of all my trials turn into the best ending that could ever be imagined. Then when I see how everything has unfolded I will say, "Heaven was cheap enough."
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3 comments:
Jackie, i simply can't go on. Not like this.
I feel you on this one Jackie. I'm getting so tired of leaving people and people leaving me.
Love you lots.
I feel that I'm missing from this last picture! I love you guys. And yes, Heaven is cheap enough!
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