in the meantime

Many people when they first find out that I'm an only child they ask this question, "Weren't you lonely?" Honestly, growing up I never felt alone. It was a way of life. I just played by myself or my mom and I would play dolls or dad and I would go to the park. Being an only never bothered me...until now.

Now, I'm not talking about being an only child, but I am talking about being an only woman. How can you kill an desire that has been put inside of you to find an earthly companion? Sometimes, I think it's silly to want to meet someone so badly. I often try to tell myself, "Come on Jackie, you don't need a man." But, at the end of the day it would be nice to have someone who is there for you.

I am completely in love with my savior Jesus Christ. I'm so thankful and happy to know and grow in a relationship with Him. I also have wonderful friends that keep me company. But, I just wish I could share that love with someone who also loves me in a way that's different. As time continues on, so does the wait. The Lord is teaching me patience I suppose.